Why I am who I am Ep #1

When  I was a kid my Dad and I built model airplanes, scale models the kind that didn’t fly but look pretty on your shelf until they got broken or so covered in dust that the decals began to peel off.  This was the first place I ever used an airbrush and the first place I painted anything freehand, usually when I couldn’t find decals for a piece of nose art I wanted to copy.  We also painted lead soldiers or “military miniature”, the progenitors of modern gaming figures.  Both of these avocations fed both my creative needs and my love of history.  They were also something Dad and I did together and that made them the best.

One of the best things was when on a weekend Dad and I would head out to the hobby shop to select our kits or figures.  Model shops in those days were pretty common and the kits they sold were manufactured by companies driven by the market in the same way reality TV is driven these days. As a result of that there were endless variations of P-51 Mustangs and Me-109s.  My personal favorite was the P-47 Thunderbolt, I guess for the same reasons I like Can Am cars, and I built more than my fair share of those.

As I started to get older though Dad started watching what I was building.  After a while he started to ask me why I wanted to build the same thing over and over or why I wanted to build the same thing all my friends were building. There was no real prodding, if I insisted on build yet another Corsair, which I also built a lot of because my Mom had worked on those in the Marines, there was some teasing but I got the kit.

After awhile though I started to see what he meant.  There were a lot of really interesting kits coming out then of odd planes.  I developed an understanding of the Teutonic lines of unkers bombers and the flowing lines of pre-war carrier planes that were more aesthetic than deadly functional as all arcraft had to become durning the war years. I looked at the model with new eyes and in those times began to understand the diverse nature of design.

Additionally each kit was bought with a PROFILE publication, a little pamphlet with information on the plane in question, plan views and alternate paint schemes.  I started to rely less on decals and more on my brush to do the paint jobs. I learned to be precise and historically accurate, two traits that served me well in the games industry.

Plastic modeling isn’t what it used to be and hobby shops are hard to find.  Most of those are chain stores.  The last hobby shop Dad and I went to was owned by Pat Patterson and was in Sacramento near McClellan AFB.  Mr. Patterson lived in the back of his shop and had every issue of National Geographic published to date in a big case in his rooms, he showed them to Dad and I.  Mr. Patterson also had a Tattoo of a propeller with the initials RFC next to it on his arm because he had been a fighter pilot in World War 1.  I was one of his favorite customers and when Dad and I came into his shop he would show me what was new in the store and often, Dad later realized, he didn’t charge me for everything that went into the crisp white bag with HIGHLAND HOBBIES printed on it in Green. Dad and I stopped modeling after the shop closed for two weeks and then we found out from his sone that Mr. Patterson had passed away.  I did a little more modeling but I was going up and girls entered the picture.

Nick and I didn’t build models together but for a short time we painted game figures together but we enjoyed while we did.  I never told him but I always felt like there were three of us there, huddled around the dining room table with our brushes in our hands.

Sorry about that chief…

Well that was a really UPBEAT kind of post for a Blog now WASN’T it?  I was trying out the new ANGST approach to enhancing Internet traffic (as outlined in the book “400 way to whine your way to success on the internet” by Sydney Winkerstream).  What better way to get people to come back to your BLOG day after day then by personally insulting their sincerity? I mean it works for Glenn Beck after all.

Truth is that I have had personal reasons to be more than a little down.  Put bluntly my Mother is in the hospital and we don’t really expect her to come out.  I can’t really talk about it much more than that just now as I am still working at getting my emotions all back together and in some sort of order.  No matter what you say or how old you are when this sort of thing happens you are suddenly transformed back into an 8 year old.

Time to get serious…

Kicking off NaNoWriMo 2010 in Sebastapol

Yesterday when I was watching NCIS, an ENDLESS stream of NCIS it seemed, with Nicholas he mentioned that he didn’t have any homework to speak of but he did want to get to work on his NaNo entry so he couldn’t watch another episode.  Sure enough, as soon as LL Cool J wrestled the last guy to the ground and Linda hunt had her final cup of tea prepared in JUST THE RIGHT WAY my son excused himself and wandered into his room.  In a few moment there were strains of Oingo Boingo wafting out into the hall and I could hear the rattle of his fingers on the keys of his PC.  Being a Dad I, of course, thought he was just going in to chat with his friends (he usually has three or four chat windows open) or to  play some Guild wars.  Being a Dad I went in to check on him.

Also being a Dad I am often wrong.  Nick was supine in his desk chair, feet up, dog in his lap and the Young adult page of NaNo up on his screen (along with two or three chat windows).  Turns out he had started to surf the forums of NaNo already, commenting on a lot of topics (as is his wont), stirring up posers and arrogant bastards (a habit he go from me) and generally winding himself up for the event.

Isn’t the DAD suppose to be the one who does the inspiring?  I realized that this year for NaNo I had no projects threatening to annex the month’s working hours (like last year).  I have a good idea that I have been throwing around in my head for a couple of years and a whole slew of inspiration.  The trouble is I was falling into the old habit of being defocused and uncommitted. That was then though, this is now and I resolved that today was going to be the day to actually get started.

This morning I dropped Nick off at his High School and trimmed the Dutchman’s sails North.  Part of me wanted to head up 101 to Crescent City and grab a room for the weekend, but I shot that down.  As much as that would be SOOO relaxing after the last two months but in the end unproductive and wasteful.

I have always been big on ritual, too much Joseph Campbell exposure I guess, so I resolved to make total a ritual start to NaNo.

Sebastapol has become a sort of second home ( I have several second Homes) so I pointed the Dutchman’s bow that direction.

Rileystreet in Santa Rosa is my favorite art store and has been since I moved from Sacramento to the Bay Area, I figured that was the place to get a new Notebook to work in so I don’t depend entirely on MicMac (my MacBook).

My long suffering writer friend Shelly had made some comments about my doodles as being “Moleskeins”, which led me to research Moleskein notebooks (which I hadn’t heard of since college).  Hemingway used Moleskeins so I figured if it was good enough for Papa it was good enough for me. I selected two with the binding at the top that fit nicely into the pockets of my traveling vest.

The pen was problematical.  I was drawn to a pricey fountain pen with a lovely leather pouch but in the end I went for a Pentel sketching pen and a Sharpie retractable.  I know I am hard on nibs and I am on a budget these days.

With my new traveling companions in hand I continued on to Sebastapol.  Normally that means Jim McLeod’s but that will lead to an afternoon watching Torchwood and talking about stuff we SHOULD or WANT to do, that was then this is now.  I needed WiFi and people in non corporate environment.  That last part I have included in a lot of my interactions these days, in the same way that I buy as much of my clothing deliberately without logos or brand names. In auto racing, if you are serious at least, you don’t advertise other people’s stuff unless they help you out or pay you to do it. I mean STARBUCK’s or even PEET’s are fine in their place but that is all part of the standard pattern I have been in, time to change the pattern.

Jim has been going on, and On AND ON about a small coffee shop in Sebastapol called Coffee Catz, always saying we should go there and go all “bohemian” like we used to.  OK Jim, I will give it a try!

So that is how I wound up where I am.  The notebooks will be for jotting down my thoughts on diverse element that will be finally drawn together in the coming weeks.  The Final organization will be in scribener, the rest is just getting to work.

Which I am going to do, talk to you later!